"I'll show them" is something you and your dad remember you saying during your childhood years. What did you think you would show "them" Wendy? Who is "them" anyway? Your peers growing up? Your teachers? Your family of origin? Your siblings? Your church? And what was it you were going to show them anyway? That you mattered? That you were/are worthy enough to notice and treat with respect? That you could rise above your own insecurities, disappointments, and self-loathing by becoming a successful enough person in your own right? Well, you certainly achieved all that. And to what end? By demanding that you get what you want when you wanted it like SNAP---or there would be hell to pay? Watching you verbally abuse your "people" during this most recent documentary was so disturbing for us viewers. You showed us how low we are capable of going when we want what we want "now" and are yet too fragile to do it or get it by ourselves. You couldn't even walk without assistance for the Lord's sake. Yet your verbal tirades seemed to flow like that vodka you kept hidden in your bedroom. Someone had to go and get those bottles for you. These people, with or without realizing it, functioned as your minions. How sad. How tragic. How typical of people who exploit each other in order to feel good now while building up their own bank accounts!
Now that you have been diagnosed with both frontotemporal dementia and aphasia...I do believe your life will become much more peaceful. At least I pray that's the case. All your money which you may or may not still actually have "now"...that will determine the quality of care you receive wherever you have landed to live for the rest of your life. I hope your beloved son and family of origin will make sure you are treated consistently with dignity and respect. You, sadly, are in the throws of remembering less, forgetting more, and eventually losing your ability to communicate altogether. Will these folks still love you and care for you when you are no longer capable of making $$$ to make their own lives easier? We'll see. I hope they each do the right thing. I feel the love they expressed for you during the documentary was genuine. Let's hope there are hands and feet to accompany those intentions because God knows...you need every bit of right help you can get right now.
Thank you for inspiring so many others to think about the quality of their own lives and relationships after watching Where is Wendy Williams? There are SO many lessons your documentary presented for every single one of us from our shared human family. We can't ever take our own health for granted be it physically, mentally, spiritually, and/or socially speaking. We can't hang with the dogs and expect not to catch fleas. We have to do what's right every single day because anything other than that is wrong. Alcohol and drug use/abuse is never without adverse consequences attached. We have to face reality rather than deny it. Love doesn't cost a thing. We need to love people and use things, not use people and love things. I could go on but you get my point....
I am making your documentary required viewing for certain of my clients. In spite of all the chatter which says it should have never been aired by Lifetime blah blah blah....I believe it serves as an important gift to each of us in the helps profession. We can learn by one another's experiences, just as Mark Laita's valuable work does with his Youtube series "Soft White Underbelly". We all reside in the underbelly of life when we become most comfortable there. It's never too late to change our direction and our path. The changes you are experiencing now with your most recent diagnoses may be just what was needed to save your life rather than end it.
Your narrative has taught us a lot Wendy; I pray only peace for you in your future...and thank you for everything your life thus far has illuminated for us.
Until next post....